Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Before you

Dear Babybuckle,

I'm going to be honest with you. We are not ready for you yet, despite the pleas from your grandmothers to PLEASE, FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THAT IS HOLY, GIVE THEM GRAND BABIES BEFORE THEY DIE or the incessant questions about our reproduction plans from our friends.

It's not that we don't ever want you; I'm sure you'll be all kinds of awesome when God decides to give you to us. You will change our lives dramatically and permanently. And for now? That's not ideal.

Because this is the "before you" time. The time that your mom and dad are sleeping in together every weekend and staying up until 1 and 2 a.m., even on work days. We're going out to 75-cent movies together on a whim on Tuesday nights and eating dinner at 10:30 p.m. every night. We're keeping a very not-kid-friendly house clean, for the most part. We're making home improvements and big life changes together, and we're working 12-hour days at work if we need to. We are paying off student loans and laying in bed playing games on my iPhone late at night. We are teasing each other, laughing until we cry, and learning hard lessons about communication together.

We are building a life together. And that life is so, so good.

This time spent waiting will make the time we have with you even sweeter, because there will be no regrets, no lost moments with one another, and plenty of time for both of us to selfishly enjoy each other and our careers. We will know that this season, the season before you, built our friendship and marriage like nothing else could.

And that makes it completely worth the wait.
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